i became too familiar with this and it aint healthy.
i forgot how to ask for help
i forgot how to receive help
please dont make me hate myself more
i became too familiar with this and it aint healthy.
I feel that walking has become another chore
I don't think I can go on walking anymore
Forgive me for those words, I know they're but a cliche to you
But life is tiring, my feet are feeling sore
I wish that i could have a bit of time to heal the ache that's growing stronger all the time
But I know time stops for nobody, let alone me, so I go inevitably
Whenever things are going rather happily it turns out life is playing a trick on me
It's slightly shameful to admit the truth, I end up in tears, and so returns the same old melancholy
I miss when life was just simplicity and misery wasn't always chasing after me
It's pretty obvious now, I should have left my regret, but I held onto it so foolishly
Maybe I overreact a bitIt hasn't destroyed me yet, has it?But everything I desire is always just too far to get
Honestly, it's just me, brainlessly, so silly, always hoping for good to be
If that's the case, then just hear my plea
Pick me up, and drop me, into unfaltering sleep!
You say to look hard for a solution
But wouldn't that depend on the person?So I could never, no I could never, believe a word anyone says
I know that everyone has their hardships
It's fairly clear to me that I'm not alone
But, how is it that they can just leave them?
I just don't know at all
Often, I'm told I need to clean up my act
Although, maturity is something I lack
And so, when some simple little problems arise, I overthink them, over and over again
It seems like the world is just a troublesome place
Sometimes, I think that I should just end the pain
“You're sick, aren't you dear?"
I'm sick of the tears!
Why can't everything just end simply?
Everything I aspire to be is nothing that will become of me
If my expectations are too far-fetched, then just what am I to do?
Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die
Give me a chance to prove my worth
I constantly search for a place to cry
Why won't these tears just stop pouring from my eyes?
It's hard to constantly think of the same things
It's just unnecessary to think too much
You always told me stars would guide me back home
Although, they only show at night
You always showed me so much kindness
I don't deserve it, I have failed you too much
I think my tiny heart is going to split
Just leave it be for now
Step back from me...
Please leave me be...
This so deceitful road that I stumble on is never going to end
It's getting difficult to maneuver
And it's just worthless to try and run away
So I'll just hold my hands over my ears, and block out all this noise
How can I live not knowing what life is?
Sometimes my dreams seem to be more realistic
Obviously I can't be called "happy"Then what am I after all?
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first post in 2k17 woohoo!
"Lift your head to a higher place now.
The dawn will shine brighter than the sun."
—EXO; Cant Bring Me Down
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